Our Stories of Change
Rich was in a complete state of crisis as he entered reparative therapy for homosexual sex addiction. His wife had caught him in yet another lie that was supposed to cover up his double life. He had "hit bottom." Finding a therapist he could trust, and who had himself overcome unwanted same-sex attractions, Rich threw himself into the deep emotional work he had been running from all his life. It changed his life.
Was the only way to find happiness to leave his faith, his young wife and their baby and join the gay community? David found reparative therapy instead, and discovered the truth about himself underlying his cravings for maleness.
Alan lived a secret double life for years before he took the classic "A.A. step" of totally surrendering his life to God. That surrender brought a dramatic change of heart. His attraction to men was miraculously de-eroticized, his sexual addiction was lifted, and he fell deeply in love with his wife. Still, he discovered he had much work to grow into full masculinity - a path that had been inadvertently derailed as a boy. (Book Excerpt: "Growth Into Manhood" by Alan Medinger)
For 47 years, Bob struggled with unwanted homosexual attractions, alternating between years-long cycles of indulgence and white-knuckled resistance. Finally, he joined a support group and discovered from others who had been freed from homosexual desires the mistake he had been making: He had been trying to do it all himself. As millions of recovering alcoholics in AA had done before, Bob finally surrendered his life and will to God. Within weeks, Bob felt his homo-erotic desires lifted, and he began a new life of intimacy with and trust in God, his wife, and male friends.
After trying in vain for years to overcome his secret homosexual sex addiction, Dan finally "came out" enough to ask others for help. Work with a spiritual counselor, new friends, inner-child therapy, a Twelve Step group, the Evergreen support group and the New Warrior Training Adventure all brought together important pieces of healing. Today, Dan says the emptiness of past lust is filled with a far more satisfying sense of brotherhood and platonic but deep brotherly love.
Floyd's life reached a turning point when, at the age of 22, he heard ex-gay Jeff Konrad (author of "You Don't Have to be Gay") speak at a conference. Finally, Floyd understood his homosexual feelings and saw a path to freedom. He entered reparative therapy, focusing not on his sexuality but on meeting his suppressed emotional needs, especially for male affirmation and brotherly love. He found his erotic feelings lessen and then start to disappear as he healed inner pain and took care of his deep inner needs for meaningful connection. Today, Floyd is a married father of three and a professional counselor who specializes in reparative therapy.
Frank was in two five-year relationships with other men. He built a home in Mexico with his second lover. He had finally found what he was looking for! But soon a nagging feeling started to surface that there was still something missing in his life. "I had everything, yet my soul seemed empty." He found books on the underlying causes of homosexuality and the path to change, and they spoke powerfully to him. "I could not stop seeking out the truth. Every book had my story in it." He began working with a reparative therapist, and never looked back. "I have become transformed."
Three weeks after meeting "Mr. Right," Jason was ready to leave his wife, children and life-long faith for a man he'd known for just days. In crisis, he found reparative therapy and a support group. As he faced the underlying emotional deficits in his life, he found his homo-erotic attractions and sexual compulsions decreased. When he found non-sexual, legitimate brotherhood with men, he found his emotional needs met and he "didn't need to go to a bookstore and find something to look at or go find some guy to connect with." Once he fulfilled the underlying emotional needs, the homosexual desires disappeared.
Painful experiences with brothers and male peers led Jerry to subconsciously reject maleness as a child. A misfit in the straight world, he sought out male acceptance in the gay community. But what he experienced there only made matters worse. His intention to seek real love and a monogamous commitment before having sex with anyone, and his search for spiritual understanding of the gay condition, made him a misfit in the gay world as well. Turning to a prayer circle at a local church, he soon felt God loving him out of homosexuality. His heart opened up to a new level of spiritual and brotherly love and intimacy, and his homosexual desires paled.
John attempted suicide three times before a doctor convinced him it was better to be gay than dead. He then pursued several homosexual relationships but never found the love he was looking for. He finally found that love and acceptance from an "adopted" family of strong, loving men and women, and by learning to trust a kind, patient and non-judgmental reparative therapist.
Repeatedly molested by his much older brother as a boy, Peter grew up very confused about love, especially among males, and what it even meant to be male. As a young teenager, he became sexually involved with a friend, and continued this pattern into young adulthood. After a motorcycle accident, afraid he would never walk again, he gave his life over to God and began turning his life around. Later, he went into therapy over his childhood molestation, and did "bibliotherapy" to help him understand how the molestation led to his homosexual confusion. Today, he is a happily married father of four in Australia who works as a counselor to others seeking change.
After experimenting and struggling for years with homosexuality, Richard uncovered forgotten sexual abuse and a lifelong hunger for a father's love. He found healing through therapy, support groups, mentors, friends, and his faith. He now works full time as a therapist and educator leading others to healing. (Richard's Web site, www.gaytostraight.org)
Three years ago, Rob was consumed with homosexual feelings. His every thought was based on same-sex attraction (SSA). Whatever he did to struggle against homosexual desires only seemed to make them come back stronger. At last he discovered reparative therapy and other resources that showed him a way out. He began uncovering and healing the underlying wounds and emotional pain, and as he did, his sexual desire for men began to dissipate, then disappear.
Other Personal Stories on the Web
- Beyond Gay, by David Morrison
- Born That Way? By Erin Eldridge
- Closing the Closet: Testimonies of Deliverance from Homosexuality, Talbert Swan
- Free Indeed, by Barbara Swallow
- Growth Into Manhood: Resuming the Journey, by Alan Medinger
- Healing Homosexuality: Case Studies of Reparative Therapy, by Joseph Nicolosi
- Out of Egypt: Leaving Lesbianism Behind, by Jeanette Howard
- A Place in the Kingdom, by Garrick and Ginger Hyde
- Portraits of Freedom: 14 People Who Came Out of Homosexuality, by Bob Davies
- Voices of Hope, 22 Personal Essays, Compiled by Ty Mansfield
- You Don't Have to be Gay, by Jeff Konrad